i wish i had some grand story about why i stopped writing. but in reality, life just got busy. i know thats the case for everyone.. everyone's life is busy, but really. i just was doing so many other things that this took the backseat. so i have a massive life update in this blog post, and maybe just maybe i can get back into writing on here. so life update in 3-2-1
Thomas and I got married! we already knew that from my last post, and i was supposed to bring you a wedding post. oops. maybe that will be next? idk.
anyway. we got married and shortly after, we bought a new house. the house of our dreams. our forever home. we walked into the 1970s and decided we wanted to live there forever. but really, our house was built in 1973 and had not been touched since. it was like an episode of the brady bunch. avocado green countertops and all. we instantly fell in love with the house and everything that we thought it could be. we closed in november of 2017. now the renovations were slow to happen. we painted as much as we could, and took down so much wallpaper that our fingernails were almost non existent. every time thomas would go out of town i would get the urge to "surprise" him with a room makeover. my mom would come over and we would scrape wallpaper and cuss a little (who am i kidding. a lot. wallpaper sucks) then we would decide we had had enough of trying to get it off, stop where we were at, use drywall compound to even everything out, and paint. it didnt look the best, which is why we ended up later redoing every room in the house.
Fast forward almost an entire year, and we found out that we were pregnant. After two miscarriages we were pregnant with our baby girl. (maybe ill open up about our first 2 in another post) we announced to our family at thanksgiving, and to the rest of the world in december.
we decided that we needed to finish the house as fast as possible, because exposed electrical and raw drywall wasnt the environment to bring a baby home to. my parents came over every single night and we all worked so hard so that the house would be in enough of a finished state to bring her home to. during this time, i also finished my english degree and graduated. which i contribute largely the fact that i stopped writing. i wrote so many essays and read so many books that there was no way that i was going to spend my free time doing more of it. but its funny, because now that it isnt mandatory, i find myself missing that part of my life. i miss writing and i miss reading just for fun. so i guess thats been a partial motivation for jumping back into this. another BIG part of this is the fact that i thought my domain actually expired lol. i did not renew it, so i figured it was just gone. but thomas asked me one day if i was ever going to blog again, and if i wasnt we should probably take my website off auto renewal. so i looked up my website and there it was in all of its "glory". so here i am. writing again. because i miss getting thoughts out on paper.. or computer? and i miss connecting with the few people that actually read my blogs and i figured i owed some sort of update to my website. haha.
also. if you are a past professor of mine, please please please do not judge the writing style. i spent the last 15 years of my life having to be aware of grammar and punctuation. read this as if i was drafting. endless run on sentences. terrible punctuation and grammar. because i am just letting the words flow, and i think thats ok for this sort of thing.
squirrel. i know.
okay back to life update.
june 19 of 2019 Stellie Faye Hill was brought into this world.
i guess another post i will do will be her birth story, because i think i am positive it is my favorite story of all time. now i am going to say every cliche thing that every parent says. she has changed our lives. we love her more than we ever knew we could love someone and we are so thankful that God chose us to be her parents. but seriously. we love the heck out of that little girl. she is so fun.
being a momma is a really cool thing. on one hand i feel like i am finally who i was born to be. i have always wanted to be a momma. you know, in 1st grade when everyone stands up and says what they want to be when they grow up. astronaut, princess, cowboy, doctor. me, i wanted to be a mom. and i think that is one of the hardest things about my everyday life right now. because. LETS BE REAL i have no idea what the heck i am doing. but i still love every second of being her momma. it is the best thing i think i will ever be.
now as if i could give anything more to make your brain spin for a life update, i think we will stop there for now.
i really dont know what kind of face this blog will take on now. i wish i could say there will be consistency, but there probably wont be, because like i said a bunch of times in the beginning, im busy. but what i can say is that when i do write, you will have my undivided attention.
thanks for reading, i appreciate the patience.
all my best always
zoie